// i started this mix on 10.24.08. two months later i left home. spent the whole year living in a different state. came back home four months ago.

who knows, maybe if i'd finished the mix, it would have worked out there... //




when i finally leave home, i'll leave this mixtape to my family. with a letter, of course, explaining why and where and how.

well, it's a very short selection. but each one of this songs mean a lot to me.

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something BIZARRE has just happend. i'm here, writing this description and watching a fine DVD one of my students lent me. big brother and the OLDING company. i swear it says olding on the cover. ¬¬ and then peter albin says, just before playing 'light is faster than sound', some stuff about runaways, and the scandals and the problems and the despair and blablabla. and i don't know why but the subtitles are in chinese ... anyway, i feel like he's talking to me.

and now, 'light is faster than sound'.

and there's a fucking car alarm pissing me off. at 1am.

MUSIC, PLEASE!

the reason why sin is so good is that the devil is much nicer than god. he allows us to do pretty much what and we want to do. we have a certain instinct to like what they call bad things. sorry, it's hard to express myself in proper english.

i mean, i'm pretty high right now. so this mix is shit. basically a bunch of songs with no connection at all. all that would remind me of sin: the stupid things i do, sins that might be fun committing, songs for my favorite sinners and, of course, my favorite sin. not talking about gluttony.

i've just taken a sleeping pill. the side-effects (if i don't go to bed right now) might include:

# anterograde amnesia
# hallucinations, through all physical senses, of varying intensity
# delusions
# altered thought patterns
# ataxia or poor motor coordination, difficulty maintaining balance
# euphoria and/or dysphoria
# increased appetite
# decreased libido
# amnesia
# impaired judgment and reasoning
# uninhibited extroversion in social or interpersonal settings
# increased impulsivity

i mean, it could be extra nice. i just don't want my libido decreased!


oh, and by the way, i'm taking sleeping pills because i need to sleep. i was just looking for information about them when i found that people use it recreationally. then i thought: why not?


(and for the lack of descriptions... well... i'm kind of afraid. so i might go to sleep after all. don't remember where i read that i could also have terrible nightmares if i fight against the medicine. and i gotta sleep anyway cause i work tomorrow. i'm scared of bad dreams, really.)

bad taste. bad english. bad internet skills.
that's me. but i'll give it a try.

when i listen to certain songs, i think: gosh, i gotta put this in a mixtape! guess this is my chance, huh? well, this mix is actually just a collection of things i really like, in no specific order. maybe it's a little bizarre. just maybe.